Still Searching?
By Prissy Hamilton

There are a million pathways or teachings to find answers in life and it can be mind boggling. There are religions, dogmas, philosophies, rituals, spiritual new age, traditional and ancient understandings available to the seeker through self-help books, tapes, lectures, and everything else. Hundreds of thousands of dollars have been spent with gurus, psychologists, psychiatrists, astrologers, shamans, medicine men and women, drugs and the like to search the otherwise ‘unknown’ for answers and, indeed, even questions.

It is interesting that all these ‘keys’, or paths promote self-fulfillment, prosperity, good health, etc., and most folks go from one discipline to the next fairly disappointed in the results.

Why don’t they work, or why do they ‘sorta’ work for a few, but not for others? What exactly is the mystery and why isn’t it obtained? Perhaps the answer is as common as the preverbal apple pie and right under our nose. Isn’t it possible that it is so common and familiar we just don’t see it, or never really think about it?

We are a product of our past. Not so much what has happened to us, but how we judged it and what we think of ourselves because of it. We have ‘mind-sets’ we have grown to trust over the years growing up and in our adult lives. We have myopic views, we have understandings that we group together and call it a truth and we react and act upon them as if they were truths.

They are not. They are false belief structures and we live our lives with these guiding us. Yogis and such, and even Christ, talked about ‘looking within.’ No one else can know what we are thinking, feeling or why we judge things the way we do. Every now and again, those judgments are set aside, the veil of self deception is melted and we get a glimpse of major truths.

Why can’t we find those truths throughout our day? The truth really is that we can. To do so, we have to give up a few things that block the understandings. We have to recognize the veil of fear, guilt and prejudice that cloud our vision of reality and keep the truth and real answers from being available to us.

This planet, the stars, the sun, the moon and all other solar systems are made up of energy…a basic component of which all things are created. That includes you and me. We are a part of the world, the universe. The same energies in the stars are in us. Different proportions, perhaps, yet the basic same ingredients…energies. If we consciously accept that, then a really deep understanding starts to exist within us. The so called mysteries, the secrets melt and become ‘just the way it is.’ It’s as simple as that.

It becomes troublesome when we can’t turn lose of the prejudices, presumptions, angers, the guilt and above all the fears. Those are the feelings and emotions that taint our knowledge, that color our world and add smog to our view of reality which is harmful to us and others.

All those things are personal within us. No two people have the same filters that they look through. They may think they agree, but in truth, they do not nor can they ever agree exactly. They aren’t supposed to, really.

Before any of the ‘ways’ can work, we have to first clear out our filters, blow out prejudices, and come to an evenness and an acceptance with ourselves and others. The old judgments and fears have to be looked at and acknowledged, not accepted as truth, just acknowledged that we have that tainted view. Then, when we are looking for truth, searching for answers, we will know if those answers are coming from our tainted view and are a-skewed, or if they are an answer holding real truth.

Facing oneself, looking at ones internal goings on, really delving into one’s own psyche is arduous, sometimes painful and scary. We fight ourselves the whole way. We lie to ourselves, we trick ourselves, and try with all we’ve got to make excuses. Once we breakthrough that veil, however, plain clear answers come through quickly and we soon realize all we feared, felt guilty about, judged ourselves and others about is really healed and gone. The rocks, sticks and stones in our path have been cleared.

We cannot find a clear path without looking within. It just won’t happen until we clean out our own baggage. We cannot continue blaming others or finding excuses for ourselves.

There ‘s another element amongst us these days…the sociopathic crowd. Sociopath: “a personality disorder characterized by an abnormal lack of empathy combined with abnormally immoral conduct despite an ability to appear normal”. You sometimes have a difficult time identifying them, but if you take a close look, you’ll find them everywhere.

I believe it’s a product of the ‘me’ society. I have been in conversations lately and they are filled with ‘their’ stuff, ‘their life.’ They have a difficult time talking about anything else and seemed bored if you bring up another subject. They certainly won’t ‘trouble shoot’ the world’s problems with anything that even hints of helping fellow citizens. They seem not to be concerned with anyone else but themselves.

What I sense is the division between, those of us that have delved within ourselves to find answers and become better human beings who understand we need to work for the ‘goodness of the whole.’ We realize we are no better off than the weakest or poorest among us. We will not be able to experience the most joy unless our fellow citizens and our Earth is feeling it as well. We are all connected in a way that is almost UN-understandable. It is undeniable, however, that each of us has an affect on the world around us. We live in a sea of thought, and feelings. Whether we realize it or not, we have an effect and so do others.

Prissy Hamilton is an author and Entrainment therapist who teaches a new understanding of emotions, energies, and relationships for transformation, empowerment and expansive living. E-mail: mailto:favplagget@aol.com">favplagget@aol.com .