Faith and Destiny

By Skye Thomas

Destiny knew she had a great calling to fulfill. She had agreed to take on a spiritual assignment that would bring love and joy to her little corner of the world. However, her inner critic was loud and persistent. She didn’t believe she was capable of accomplishing that which she was meant to do. Even after years of spiritual lessons and tutoring from the angels themselves, she still did not believe in herself. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to do it. Her inner critic always convinced her that she wasn’t ready quite yet. Years were passing by and she was still waiting to become worthy of her own special place in the world. 

The angels have a way of making sure we fulfill our promises to them, so they sent Faith to cheer Destiny on. At first, Destiny hardly even noticed that Faith was present. Faith would not be ignored. She made a point of getting Destiny’s attention and forced Destiny to take her seriously. They soon became the best of friends. Destiny had never had a friend to cheer her on the way Faith did. Faith found that Destiny was very good at pointing out which path was the divine path for the two of them. So, with Faith’s undying belief and Destiny’s sense of direction, they traveled together focusing on healing each other’s old wounds and on how Destiny would fulfill her promise to the angels. 

After a handful of years traveling through life with Faith, Destiny was finally ready to begin her spiritual mission. With Faith cheering her on, she began making formal plans and preparations. She quit her ‘real job’ and went to work for the angels. She began the task that had been assigned to her and fell flat on her face. It hurt. Faith helped Destiny back up and soothed her until she was ready to try it again. Never at any time did Faith doubt that Destiny had what it would take to make this thing happen. So Destiny dove again—and again failed. As before Faith was there to keep her believing in herself when her inner critic was shouting, “See, I told you that you’d fail!”

Just as Destiny was about to make her biggest and most dramatic attempt at fulfilling her promise, Faith suddenly disappeared from her life. Destiny had made such a huge running start towards this third attempt that she had to keep going — if for nothing else as a tribute to her love of Faith. Destiny made it much farther the third time, but still failed. Without Faith there to pick her up again, she did not feel there was any point in trying again. She had failed Faith and had not kept her promise to the angels.

As life’s dramas swallowed Destiny’s time and energy, she kept reflecting on what had happened. Where was Faith when she so desperately needed her? Why had Faith deserted her? Would Faith ever come back? The questions seemed endless. Why had she failed at giving her gift to the world three times? Why would the angels ask such a thing of her and spend all those years training her if only to let her fall over and over again? What would she do with her life now that she was no longer working for the Angels? Who would she become since she was not living out her own promises? Would the angels ever forgive her? Would she ever forgive herself for losing Faith? Would she ever forgive herself for failing at her spiritual calling?

Slowly, Destiny began to miss being the kind of woman who accepts cosmic challenges, or being someone angels would seek out for assistance. She missed being the essence of who she really was. She realized that even if she failed every single time for the rest of her life, there was no one else that she would rather be. There really was no other path for her than the one the angels had pointed her towards.

In this realization she found her own inner belief, healed her own wounds and stood up again —walking carefully down that path. This time, she would have to do it without Faith. Destiny at last believed in herself, supported herself, and finally learned to love who she was.

When Destiny took her fourth leap of faith into her spiritual work, it began very slowly but steadily. This time, she was not afraid and knew she would not quit if she fell. This time she would fly with her own wings — not on someone else’s. She still desperately ached for Faith’s companionship, yet didn’t require someone else’s belief in her anymore. Faith would always be her friend no matter where she was or if they ever saw each other again. Destiny could walk tall and travel alone now living the life she had promised to live. 

Do not be afraid to walk alone. Do not wait until others cheer for you. Do not stop because your support system has disintegrated. The angels may not always help the way you want them to, but you also must remember that you would not be asked to do something spiritual and holy if they did not believe in you. 

(Copyright 2004) Skye Thomas is an author and freelance writer. 
For further information visit her website at www.tomorrowsedge.net